This week I have been feeling very small and insignificant. This is a horrible feeling.
I generally try to stay positive, and have a good grip on my self-esteem. From time to time, something sends me into a tailspin and it is all downhill from there. That is where I am right now.
I will crawl out of this, probably by the end of the day but in the mean time I feel like I am trying to hold myself together.
Do other people also feel like this sometimes?
This week I have been trying to make sure things in my little world are running smoothly. As I mentioned in a previous post, that has been difficult in recent months. Yesterday, I was left feeling like the good I was doing was for nothing. And basically left looking like I was the bad guy. I was a little shocked how one person’s interpretation of something could be so misconveyed or misunderstood when told to someone else. It was almost enough for me to throw my hands up and walk away.
Why is it that in those moments, you also feel like you have no one to turn to? Yesterday, Ed did not answer his phone, and his phone sucks so he never got my voicemail message. (Maybe today! Fingers crossed.) At work, it felt like no one was talking to me. Nothing felt right. It was one of those moments where you look at the 500 friends you have on Facebook and feel like there is no one there for you.
I know that some of this feeling is coming from me and my OCD. I am stuck in my head, going over and over things. I am looking around my house and noting all the stuff that needs to be done or that has been neglected this week. And I start to freak out a bit. **Deep breath**
So if you are looking for me, I will be hiding under the covers for a bit. But not to worry, I will come out soon. If for no reason but to get my house straightened up.
I hope that none of you are feeling small or insignificant. I certainly don’t think that of you. I am beyond honored and grateful when I see that I have a new follower. Thanks for listening to me, I am getting a little less small by the moment. But that could be from the DRINK ME bottle I found on the table this morning. Who knows…
Love & light, my friends.